I slept at least 8 hours last night.

I woke up tired.

Low carb sucks.

I guess the only plus is that I’m not all that hungry. At least I’m not as hungry as I thought I’d be. I usually do 1700-1900 kcals. Ultimate Diet 2.0 has me doing 1200.

I’m really worried that I’m not getting in enough depletion during these workouts. I just can’t seem to match weight with reps and time under tension on some stuff. If I go lighter I get no burn. Heavier I fail. I dunno.

Did cardio this morning. I didn’t think I’d feel like doing it after today’s lower body workout. I actually probably could have gotten through it. I was just kinda bitchy and cranky so I’m glad I did it this morning. Then again, now I’m sitting here at 6:30 and have only like 300 calories left for the day. I was hungry by the time I went to bed last night, which was about an hour after I ate. :(

Nights suck for me. I just want to go to sleep but I can’t because: A) it’s too early and B) my daughter is coming home from college tonight. And that’s another thing!! She is an eater. Eating, eating, all the time. And she never shuts up. She’s gonna stress me I just know it. I talked to her earlier today and she’s like, “Let’s do something tonight, I wanna go to the movies.” Sure, she’s gonna get home maybe 8 or 9pm, we have to unload all her crap and then go out? I WOKE UP TIRED!! I just want to sleep!!!!! Not to mention the fact that I have no money or debit card and the movies cost like 8 gazillion dollars AND they have that stinking popcorn I hate HATE HATE saying no to! AND I’M HUNGRY!!

Bah. First thing I’m eating Friday night is M&Ms. I’ve already decided. No, second thing. First thing will be my pwo shake. They’ve got one of those candy machines in my “gym”, candy machine in the gym? hence the quotes, and I have to look at the M&Ms in it every time I leave the gym, when I’m starving, and can’t have my pwo carbs. :( I swear I only workout so that I can have my crack dextrose/malto/whey afterwards. I love that stuff. LOVE it. I put it in the blender and it gets all foamy and thick, almost like a milkshake but better than a milkshake.

I’m too tired to do a workout log. I need to do more calf sets and I should be good, at least #of set wise. Who knows if I worked hard enough. Yeah, I got dizzy, especially during DLs. I dunno what made me think that would be a good idea but I did ‘em. 4 sets @ 95lbs.

Well, at least my knees don’t hurt. At all. It’s amazing. I didn’t do lunges as that’s when I first felt the pain. I may try them next week. I couldn’t do step ups. Gym was too crowded today. Couldn’t do back extension either, again couldn’t get near it. I’m really tired of the crowds.

And, I’m so sick of the walking pheromone and his hot/cold crap. I dunno what that’s about. He’s either super shy or doesn’t think I like him, maybe both. I’m shy too, so grrr I dunno how to do this. I dunno. I dunno. I’m about ready to just tell him to ask me out or something. This is getting INCREDIBLY frustrating. And every once in a while he won’t show up for a week. I start thinking I missed my chance to, I dunno, tell him I love him and want to marry him?, OK just that I want him, badly.

Kid just called. They are out to eat. She’s having chicken parm. I whine, bitch, and moan. She says, “I’ll bring some home for you!”

Oh great, and there’s the damn ice cream truck with it’s loud obnoxious music.